Mc Chris is having a Contest for his song "Nrrrd Grrrl"... the idea was to make a music video and this is what we came up with!
so, here's the plot, basically.. try to keep up.
here, we have "Nrrrd Grrrl" who meets up with Private Dick in hopes he can find the scum bag who took her most special thing, her identity. Lets see what happens!
there were two lemurs in a car.
one lemur turns to the other & says
"how'd you come to acquire that bunk bed?"
& the other one replies
"what do i look like, a toaster?"
this really wasn't suppose to make sense.. don't hurt yourself tryin' to figure it out.... it not making any sense at all is the joke.
it's the last day in January. we're fully into this new year.
i believe I've had a breakdown but can't be quite sure.
there's a numbness in my brain but my stomach feels like a hamster wheel.
I've put myself out there, I've offered myself at minimum wage, i offered every single day i have.
they still don't want me.
it's becoming ridiculous. I've tried so hard and have nothing to show for it.
& no one can see how much I've changed, but i guess that's okay because I'm doing this for me.
i just wish I'd see one glimmer of hope.
i walk in with this valley girl persona, all giddy and "Nice to meet you" and nothing.
nothing works.
I'm even genuinely blissful if they're the same way to me. and nothing.
today, i rolled out of bed and knew what day it was. i was aware of everything going on today and I'm not sure i can do much now to stop any of it.
i guess what i fear the most is not really having someone believing in me.
it hurts, i guess.
tonight is going to be nasty here, the sleet is on it's way.
i guess my mood reflects.
